just for a second

i pick up my phone.

A glimpse of your face crosses my mind. your beautiful smile

blinds my vision. your brown eyes stare right into mine, my heart skips two beats. one

for you, one for me. my brain races. memories that i thought i buried begin to

resurface. the times when we laughed until 3 oclock in the morning. or when you sat

on my porch with me, just to watch the stars turn into clouds. .

when i used to get mad, but couldn’t stay for long, because feelings always got in the way.

now, with my phone in my hand. i want to call you. i’m tired of crying to my pillow and hugging my covers.

instead of you.

i’m tired of people breaking my heart and hurting me. including you.

despite that, you’re the one i want. your voice is the only one that will

soothe me. that will allow me to forget of my problems, even just for a

second.